Thursday, May 14, 2009

I was lost....

But now I'm found!

I've been having a bit of an identity crisis over the past few months. As many of you may know, I'm a self-taught artist. My professional training is in the ever so handy field of political science and history as well as a smattering of a few languages thrown in. Okay, well, the languages are very handy and it is good to know history what with its repeating itself and all, but ultimately, in my current situation, it's true that my diplomas aren't exactly pulling their weight.

Nevermind that though. I love what I do and have always wanted to be able to make a living through art. So I realise that I'm very lucky.

However, given that I have no formal training in the field, it can sometimes be a long haul to get to where I want to be. There is so much I want to learn and so many experiments I want to do. I try to do it as much as I can while raising 3 children and running a business and trying to keep a somewhat organised house.

It's not always easy and over the past few months though I have been trying out new techniques, I was being to feel a bit like I had lost myself. I don't know if any of you reading this has ever had that experience, but losing oneself is not fun. Not at all. I was worried.

But... suddenly, I believe a lightbulb has gone on and I feel like I may be back! As always, I know this isn't the end of my journey, but I do believe I've found a balance between where I began and where I want to do. It's such a relief!

So here is a post to show off a bit of my playing around over the past few days. Now if I could only stop myself from wanting to redo all of my images...

19 comments:

Duni said...

I think we all have those moments. Just follow your passion(s) and listen to your intuition and everything will fall back into place. I know..I've been there :)

Spotted Sparrow said...

Yay, I'm glad you're feeling yourself again. Don't you dare redo those pictures; they are gorgeous! ;)

Giffysk8s said...

Gretchen~at some point, we have all been there, done that. Though my results aren't ever as pretty as what you posted today! LOL And this darling little girl MUST MUST MUST become a Stamping Bella stamp! (Please oh please???)

SoBella Creations said...

I think we all have those moments. I know when I go to mix ribbon colors etc, if I'm having a off week. Then nothing I make looks right. The loops look wrong everything.

Glad you found yourself.

Have you thought of taking formal classes since it is a love of yours?

St├ęphanie Kilgast said...

Great you found yourself again.
I feel a bit lost myself, so I understand you really :)

aliceinparis said...

I love your work, more casual and so sweet:)

myminimocs said...

don't touch them Gretchen :) they're beautifully complete!!!

Jennifer Rose said...

glad you found yourself again :) its never fun to feel lost no matter what a person does.

a redo of images is nice sometimes, kind of update your original ideas. :) thoughts about a piece change sometimes and if you think you can improve the idea, I say go for it :)

Heli said...

Oh yes! I think it is even necessary to doubt yourself sometimes, otherwise there wouldn't be any progress and developing. Those are precious moments. Good for you :)

Rita from alatvian.etsy.com said...

Thank you so much for sharing!

fleurfatale said...

Glad to hear you are back Gretchen!! I've been there too, and i still do struggle with it!
weel, that's life, I guess...
The drawings are really beautiful!

ingermaaike said...

So glad you have found yourself again! We all have these wandering and doubts and sometimes it is hard to see where we are going...

Not Perfect But Nice said...

Glad to hear your back! Love your opening profile about the northern flatlands and that chichibouli is your sunshine: I know EXACTLY how you feel living in the north myself!! I have given you the award of "kreative blogger" on my blog! Congratulations!

ArtMind said...

I think it's perfectly normal to wander once in a while and have doubts about anything and everything. It's very enervating though and I'm glad you're back on track. I love the images you just made! :)

Cupcake said...

I sometimes struggle with feeling like I am doing the same things over and over again. So I don't know that I am trying to find myself so much as trying to recreate myself.

I love the illustration of the boots. Simple and sweet and eye catching. Very good :-)

Star of the East said...

Glad to read that you found yourself back, I think everyone has an identity crises from time to time :)

Hope Spencer said...

I love the new look of your blog!It's just so fun and energy-filled. And, I love the look of your recent work, just too cute, Gretchen!

Lori Kae said...

Creativity comes to us in so many fashions. I love your new and past work! Designing can have life seasons. :) May your creative spirit continue to grow and be fulfilled!
Smiles!!

littleblackduckblog said...

So glad you've sorted things out for yourself. Feeling lost is a stressful thing and somehow takes over your every thought. You really must feel like a weight has lifted :o)