Monday, August 20, 2012

A little afraid...

...to even attempt a post since it's been so very long since I've written anything on here.  But since the idea has come to me, I thought I should go with it as you never know where it will lead and there must be a reason for it.

The past year has been a busy one for me with many changes having been made and more still to come.  If I've been quiet with Chichiboulie there is a reason.  In fact, there are several.

The first is that I went back to school.  Yes, one more diploma in the works!   Perhaps it's cliché, but I turned 40 back in January and in the months leading up to then, I just knew it was time to make a change.  While I love what I've been able to do with Chichiboulie over the past 8 years or so, it was no answering my needs in the way it once had.  I still enjoy it and it's still ticking along on it's own, but we evolve and change and it was time for me to add something different to my life.

New Style, New Me!
And so after a lot of thought and research and soul searching, I started training in Transactional Analysis to become a therapist.  I'm fascinated by it all and the insights it's brought me and helped me to bring to others.  In all honesty, it's not an easy training to undertake as it requires the trainee to question his or herself and set ways of behaving or doing things.  It can be a bit destabilizing to say the least, but if you can make it through the bumpy bits, the ride is definitely worth it.  In the end I have loved every minute of it and look forward to what lays ahead.

In addition to working towards my certification as a psychotherapist, this summer I also started towards my certification in EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique or Tapping as it's commonly known) which I find to be a very simple yet powerful tool to use when we're feeling a bit stuck.  Know that feeling?  Yeah, me too.  Again, the certification is in the works (it's not an overnight process after all!), but it's on its way.  I don't plan on stopping there and the combination of psychology and energy therapies speaks to me in such a logical way that it all feels like it's coming together.  Perhaps not quite as quickly as I would like at time, but I'm learning to take things as they come.

With all that, I will be opening my therapy practice this autumn and really just can't wait!  A completely new venture that is a bit scary at the same time.

So where does that leave Chichiboulie?  To be honest, I don't really know.  Part of me wonders if it's not run its course and it's perhaps time to say goodbye.  And yet, every time I think of that, something stops me.  I'm taking this as a sign at the moment that perhaps it's not really time.  It's been a good friend and because of it I've made so many good friends.  How can you just let go like that?  Maybe Chichiboulie just needs to evolve like I have.  So many others were willing to give me the time and space I needed, so it seems only fair for me to do the same.

Part of me believes that Chichiboulie, like myself, will emerge from it all.  Perhaps in a new and different form.  Most probably so as on top of all the rest, I've also been secretly taking art classes!  I said I'd been busy, didn't I?

Something new is emerging.  Now I just need to give it all time.

2 comments:

Heloise said...

Good luck with it all. I think we all reach a point or several where things evole, change and we move on.
Follow your heart and use your head and I am sure you will reach where you wish to be.

Marble medallions said...

Hope you will become a therapist soon. all the best.
~ Herman Swan